Please slap me if I ever say the L word again or go to P.A.
Needless to say this has to be one of the most used cliches in the english language. I am guilty of saying it – many of us are. Here’s a case where it’s better to give than recieve.
I met this girl and thought she was the lady I was looking for all my life. She was to the best thing since sliced bread. She brought all the good things out of me. Yeah the corny factor is at 10 Oxygen network stuff. She’s a single Mom, beautiful, funny, warm, and I guess everything a guy like me looked for in a girl. I never thought I would get caught up, but I did.
From the begining my brother Alex told me not to reveal my feelings too much. Or in other words, it’s better not to say or talk about the relationship because sometimes talking about the relationship especially with a single Mom actually kills the relationship. He himself fell in love with a single Mom – they’re still together.
Today there is a generation of single Moms that make bad decisions. It just so happens I’m in the same age group. I guess my relationship with her was destined to fail from the begining. Maybe there should be a “Decision Awareness month” for girls in high school. You know start early. Example, should I go home with the thug with tattoos and corn rows? Probably not.
Anyway, Sunday evening after she told me she loved she said “we should be just friends.” I was disappointed but I wasn’t crushed. I was disappointed for being duped. I was disappointed for not listening to Alex and being just another nice guy in her wake. I guess for her I’m just a pit stop between a-holes — Good guys usually are.
No worries. I gave all I could and she told me “love isn’t enough”. Ain’t that a biotch. Personally, love (real love) is always enough. It’s like the unversal superglue. The thing was she just didn’t love me. Look, I’m a big boy and I understand because even I’ve said those words “I just want to be friends” but maybe there should be an update to that saying like “I just want you to be your friend with benefits”, but I won’t go there.
Mostimes we learn by failing, enter this relationship. I wanted her to love me so bad that I forgot who I was and allowed her to step all over me. Lesson learned.